Today I am sad, sitting in the stairs, writing and eating black chocolate.
Is there another reason to be sad than feeling alone? The loneliness of human being... As far as I remember now, I can’t imagine another, but there might be. It’s just that the present problem always seems to be the worst, as well as our feelings are always more important than other’s...
OK. I am having an overdose of chocolate right now. Just one more piece...
And why do I feel alone? Because I am expecting deep relations with people I have known for less than two weeks, which I don’t seem to realize...
Because I can’t reach Graziano, neither by facebook nor by phone. Because Graziano wanted to open a restaurant in Italy with me and learn how to ski in Canada and now he is gone for another house with 40 Pounds I had lent to him and we haven’t talked since Monday.
I’ve eaten 80 grams of chocolate.
Monica is at work.
The Portuguese girls are disappeared.
Patricia, my other Spanish roommate, says that I have to be careful because here in London I am alone, without family and without friends and I should not expect too much from people I have just met.
Patricia calls me tonight: “Hey sad girl”. I don’t know if she knows my name. Maybe not.
I am in the stairs and I would like arms to hug me.
I think that at least my friends and my sister will be happy to read this and know that even in London, far from school and normal problems, sadness exists.
You're homesick. Don't feel lonely we're not that far! PLEASE keep head up and eyes open... at least for me! I'm so jealous. You're living such a great adventure, so much more interesting than my studies. love and sweet thoughts ! ;)
RépondreSupprimerI think of you and I send you a big hug . Look at the moon and tell your self that we see the sameone... We are not so far afterall! xoxo
RépondreSupprimerGabe =(
RépondreSupprimerdon't be too sad, you know chocolate is the best medicine for sadness ;)
I'm so glad you like your job!!!
I wish i could come visit you this summer, we'll see!
Enjoy every moment of your trip, you know even at home we can still feel lonely sometimes...
By the way, i read your blog EVERYDAY!
keep up smiling!
Marina xox
TeddyBear Hug from my part :D
RépondreSupprimerGet an international phone card (Little expense that you'll do only once in a while) and call someone here. Or even better, use skype to talk to people you miss.
Fais attention aux hommes toi! Les européens (je fais une très grosse généralisation ici!) peuvent laisser croire qu'ils veulent te marier et vivre heureux avec toi pour toujours quand au fond, ils ne veulent qu'une brève fréquentation, ou même rien du tout. Juste pour le plaisir de la cruise. Ça peut faire mal les premières fois (ouais, LES fois) que ça arrive, mais un moment donné tu les vois venir gros comme un éléphant et tu ne t'amourache plus trop.
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